I was on national tv for 5 sec... LOL

so I may be on tv tomorrow night, I am not going to lie.. I am a bit nervious now.. Long story short i had to read lines for Dinner, Drive Ins and Dives for work.. the episode airs tomorrow... *eep

So it seems like I've caught a cold. Not very happy about getting sick, I'll have no time to do my papers know..

Watching Mars attacks before I go to bed. I forgot how great and wierd this movie is.

Lunch with Steph tomorrow after noon, I can't wait. I think I'm buying her b-day drinkes

I need to sleep...

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almond cream cake.. so very very tastey. I wish I had a latte to go with this, then I'd be in heaven

I am a sucker for almond paste, or hazelnut..

its the little things that make me happy..

had a moment wed. night durning my date with Matt.. where I wanted to climb and sit in a rather large tree..

today I had lunch with my hippy x boyfriend..

now all I can think about is relaxing to some instrumental music and smoking a hulka while meditating. I want to roll around in the dry leaves and walk bare foot in the wet grass.
I want to sit in a sunny spot and write..

I don't know what it is, but I am feeling that hippy itch. long skrits, sandels in all.

On a different non hippy note. I just got my photos back, they look great I just need to edit some of them.
Also I want to see if one of my photographers does pinup cause there is this Pinups for Pitbulls calender I want to do. If I can't get a pinup photographer here I can contact Ama in LA and visit Cali..
Either way I am just very content today..

Thing have been a little hecktic for me. Been busy with classes trying to keep my grades up so that I don't get on probation again. So its been a bit stressfull. Though for the most part its going well, just need to start my paper assignments for classes and catch up on some readings.
Life is going well, Matt and I are doing better. Our anniversery has come and gone, we started talking about getting our own place. Sounds like we're getting serious. lol
I've only been with him for 5 years..
Getting my shit together, finishing school, making friends and saving for my business plan.
Vigil is doing great, I am very happy with all the work Matt & I have done. It will be a year in April being at the Middlesex Lounge. I am very excited and proud of myself.
If only I was able to get class credit for it.
On a different note I am booking myself for some photo shoots, mostly for fun, and maybe try to model. I am going to make a plan to go to NY for a weekend and see if I could do some paid shoots. We'll see though, also will give me a chance to do market research and shopping.
I've been writing a lot, which is great. Journal stuff and poetry, I got this sudden urge to publish some of my poems, just need to look more into it.

Trin's great, the family is good from what I can tell. Seeing my dad on sunday which will be interesting.

Now work on my paper

I am still alive, just very busy.. there will be a massive update to come..

figuring school out, not sure about Halloween. I'm just a bit burnt out this week.

sore, tired and depressed is an awful combo right before the weekend

Two fairies it was On a still summer day Came forth in the woods With the flowers to play. The flowers they plucked They cast on the ground For others, and those For still others they found. Flower-guided it was That they came as they ran On something that lay In the shape of a man. The snow must have made The feathery bed When this one fell On the sleep of the dead. But the snow was gone A long time ago, And the body he wore Nigh gone with the snow. The fairies drew near And keenly espied A ring on his hand And a chain at his side. They knelt in the leaves And eerily played With the glittering things, And were not afraid. And when they went home To hide in their burrow, They took them along To play with to-morrow. When you came on death, Did you not come flower-guided Like the elves in the wood? I remember that I did. But I recognized death With sorrow and dread, And I hated and hate The spoils of the dead.

I love matt, he bought me flowers! hopefully some cute dinnery thing tonight.
But happy anniversary sweetheart.

I can't remeber the name, but I know it was chocolate... hmmm... I want beer...

"For once in my life, let me get what I want.Lord knows it would be the first time..." The Smiths..

I am going to try and not blow dry my hair straight today, just an FYI I have a natural wave in my hair..

We'll see how this goes...

Poem:"I'm not at peace, nor am I still at war, I hope and fear, I burn but freeze as ice; I fly in heaven but lie on Earth, And I own nothing and yet own the world. I seek in vain the keys to unlock doors. She niether frees me nor keeps me as hers; Love doesn;t kill but he doesn't let me live; He wants my service but won't pay for it. I see without, sing without a tongue; I want to die for you but yet I'll live; I hate myself but love mankind for you. I relish pain and laugh through you tears; I spurn Death as much as I spurn life; It is because of you that this is so." by Francesco Petrarch

Anyone know of a good place to recycle old electronics?

such a lazy sunday

the end of the week... I am so exhausted and I can't wait to get home and get my sleep on.

Also can't wait to get this semester over with..

whole wheat pasta, red sauce, tofu "meat balls", olives and mushrooms